Tuesday, March 23, 2010
new diet.
ha, i must drive some of you crazy with my constant change of diets. but hey, i just gotta find what works for me, so i can stick to it.
so that being said, here's my new diet:
- only eating on days with a "u" in it (fasting on monday, wednesday, friday)
- no more than 500 calories on any other day. try to keep it under 300, but allow myself to go up to 500.
it is 5 pm here, and i just started a 36 (at least) hour liquid fast. i am not going to eat until thursday at 6 am, which would make it about 37 hrs. but i am going to try to go until thursday at 11:30 am, depending on how i'm feeling.
so that being said, here's my new diet:
- only eating on days with a "u" in it (fasting on monday, wednesday, friday)
- no more than 500 calories on any other day. try to keep it under 300, but allow myself to go up to 500.
it is 5 pm here, and i just started a 36 (at least) hour liquid fast. i am not going to eat until thursday at 6 am, which would make it about 37 hrs. but i am going to try to go until thursday at 11:30 am, depending on how i'm feeling.
Monday, March 22, 2010
ABC day one.
with spring break just a week away, i MUST get control. i will not allow myself to sit at home all day every day binging constantly. i'm ready to beat the binge monster. so i'm starting abc. i will stick to it, no exceptions. also, i don't think i've updated you guys- i became vegan! which will make the whole no-binge thing easier.
- apple (80)
- rice cake w/ salsa (40)
- oatmeal (130)
- bouillon cube (5)
total: 255
i may allow myself half a can of soup (50) if i must, but i think i'll be okay. wish me luck!
- apple (80)
- rice cake w/ salsa (40)
- oatmeal (130)
- bouillon cube (5)
total: 255
i may allow myself half a can of soup (50) if i must, but i think i'll be okay. wish me luck!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
so this is how my weekend is going to play out-
i'm going to lay around all weekend watching movies and shows. i'll be watching about a million episodes of skins, since i just got into it the other day.
plus, i'll be starting on this list of thinspo movies i have to watch:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kAmN7tRDlo
Thin http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZm2g9FLrGA
gia
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7VmB6phCtc
Living with Size 0
i'm going to lay around all weekend watching movies and shows. i'll be watching about a million episodes of skins, since i just got into it the other day.
plus, i'll be starting on this list of thinspo movies i have to watch:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5kAmN7tRDlo
Thin http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZm2g9FLrGA
gia
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7VmB6phCtc
Living with Size 0
Monday, March 15, 2010
"losertown"
according to this website called "losertown", if i eat 500 calories per day, with light exercise, i can get to 84 by april 12th. this makes me happy. you all should go to this website and put in your stats, to see how long it'll take you to reach your goal.
http://losertown.org/eats/cal.php
http://losertown.org/eats/cal.php
Saturday, March 13, 2010
nicole richie thinspo.
i absolutely adore nicole richie. i think her body is PERFECT. she is 5'1 and her average weight is around 90. that means she should be bigger than me, but i don't see it :/
Friday, March 12, 2010
when you feel a binge coming on....
- shower
- tea, coffee, water, crystal lite
- yoga
- brush teeth
- snap a rubber band around your wrist
- pinch yourself very hard
- sleep
- put in a movie
- take a walk
- close your eyes and count to 200
- chew ice
- tea, coffee, water, crystal lite
- yoga
- brush teeth
- snap a rubber band around your wrist
- pinch yourself very hard
- sleep
- put in a movie
- take a walk
- close your eyes and count to 200
- chew ice
57 rules.
1. Drink one glass of water every hour. It will make you feel full.
2. Drink ice cold water. Your body will burn calories just getting the water to a normal temperature to digest. Also it is great for your complexion.
3. Drink 3 cups of green tea daily. It will help boost your metabolism, plus its anti-oxidants make your skin look great.
4. Take vitamins daily. Do not take vitamins on an empty stomache, otherwise they have nothing to catalyze with.
5. Eat ice or gum when hungry. This will make your body think it had food without the calories.
6. Do aerobics or Yoga. Try something new like Belly dancing or sign up for a salsa class
7. Eat spicy foods. They raise your metabolism.
8. Take cold showers because your body will burn calories to heat you back up.
9. DON'T take laxatives. They don't help you to lose weight.
10. DON'T use diruretics. They only dehydrate you.
11. Brush your teeth constantly so you won't be tempted to eat afterwards.
12. Weat a rubberband around your wrist. Snap it when you want to eat.
13. Clean something
14. Keep your hair in good condition so no one will suspect anything.
15. Get a job so you'll have to work through meal times.
16. Exercise the amount of calories eaten.
17. Keep a food journal.
18. Chew eat bite of food thoroughly and then take a sip of water between bites. You will feel full quicker and will not eat as much.
19. Say you are going to eat at a friend's house and instead go for a walk. You will be burning calories instead of taking them in.
20. Buy clothes that you can't fit into and hang them wear you can see them. This will motivate you to lose weight to fit into them.
21. Sleep at least six hours a day. If you get less than six this can lower your metabolism by 15%.
22. If you start to feel hungry do situps or punch yourself in the stomach. You will not feel hungry anymore.
23. Pamper yourself! TaKE a WarM Bath. Give yourself a facial, paint your nails, anything to make you feel pretty.
24. Make yourself a snack, but instead of eating it throw it away. Leave the dirty dishes where your parents can find them. They will think you ate.
25. Prepare a list of excuses as to why you can't eat - You're sick, you're a vegetarian, allergic, etc. You'd be amazed at how many good excuses there are.
26. Get out of your house! If you're not sitting around then people can't start shit with you about not eating.
27. Join a pro-ana group or start your own website. Anything that will keep you motivated.
28. Make an ANA scrapbook with pics of skinny models. Right down all the reasons you want to lose weight. Keep track of everything you eat. Look at it daily for thinsperation.
29. Keep good posture, burns 10% more calories when you sit up straight.
30. Instead of food, buy something else, a new shirt, flowers, jewelrey etc.
31. Make a list of all the "bad" foods that you crave and tend to binge on. Each day, pick one to take out of your diet that you absolutely, no matter what, cannot eat again. Take one off the list each day until there are no more bad foods you can have.
32. Avoid alcohol! A shot of liquor has 100-120 calories, a glass of wine has 80 calories, a lite beer has 110-120 calories, and a regular beer has 140-170 calories.
33. Never eat anything bigger than about a 2 cups, your stomach will expand and then you'll get hungry more.
34. Eat in front of a mirror naked. See how much you can eat then!
35. The smell of coffee is suppose to supress appetite.
36. Wear perfectly applied lip gloss. It makes you more aware of what's going in your mouth. Also, flavored ones help with cravings.
37. Have 6 small meals a day. Take 2 apples, and split them so you can make 6 meals out of them. That way your body will be tricked into thinking it's eating more.
38. Low calorie hot chocolate curbs chocolate cravings, and makes you feel full.
39. Think Happy thoughts and meditate
40. Take a picture of yourself wearing a bathing suit or something equally revealing, look at it when you want to eat.
41. It takes 20 minutes for the brain to realize the stomach is full.
42. When you get hunger pains curl into a ball, it makes them go away.
43. If you're a smoker and hungry, light up a cigarette. It curbs your appetite.
44. Eat lots of fiber. It makes you feel full and takes fat with it out of your body. The natural cleansing helps improve both your energy level and overall feeling of wellness.
45. Before you dig into that cake, bag of chips, candy, or whatever, take a deep breath and count to 100. Usually by the time you get to 100 you will have convinced yourself that you don't really want it.
46. When you're hungry chug 2 glasses (or how many you need) of straight water. It'll make you so full and nauseous you will have completely lost your appetite.
47. Celery actually burns calories. Every hour eat a stalk of it. Not only will it fill you up, but it will also get your metabolism kickin'.
48. Weigh yourself before and after every time you eat. Not only will it eliminate unnecessary eating, but it will make you want to eat less when you see the numbers creep up.
49. Read the nutritional information. Remember, fat-free does not mean calorie-free. Also keep an eye on fiber content. Get as much fiber into your diet as you can, while cutting fat and calories.
50. Don't eat a lot at once. Spread your food throughout the day. This will help to avoid binging and keep your metabolism going.
51. If you like to drink alcohol, you'll like this. Make a rule: You can only drink every time you lose 2lbs. So, if you lose 4lbs a week, you can drink Friday and Saturday night. However, if you only lose 2lbs a week, you only get to drink one night.
52. Do not eat in front of the computer or TV. This distracts you from recognizing you're full. 53. Save the money you would have spent on that meal in a jar. Save it in a bottle instead and watch it grow.
54. Stay away from Slim-fast and other so-called "healthy" candy bars and shakes... one look at the nutition facts will tell you why. With all the carbs and excess calories you may as well go eat a freakin pie or something. Not to mention the rediculous prices... save yourself the money, and the calories.
55. Instead of buying food, buy yourself flowers. Food is depressing, but flowers make you happy.
56. When having cravings drink a couple glasses of water with slices of lemons and count to 100 and it should go away.
57. Eating 100 cals 4 times a day is better than eating a 400 cal meal.
2. Drink ice cold water. Your body will burn calories just getting the water to a normal temperature to digest. Also it is great for your complexion.
3. Drink 3 cups of green tea daily. It will help boost your metabolism, plus its anti-oxidants make your skin look great.
4. Take vitamins daily. Do not take vitamins on an empty stomache, otherwise they have nothing to catalyze with.
5. Eat ice or gum when hungry. This will make your body think it had food without the calories.
6. Do aerobics or Yoga. Try something new like Belly dancing or sign up for a salsa class
7. Eat spicy foods. They raise your metabolism.
8. Take cold showers because your body will burn calories to heat you back up.
9. DON'T take laxatives. They don't help you to lose weight.
10. DON'T use diruretics. They only dehydrate you.
11. Brush your teeth constantly so you won't be tempted to eat afterwards.
12. Weat a rubberband around your wrist. Snap it when you want to eat.
13. Clean something
14. Keep your hair in good condition so no one will suspect anything.
15. Get a job so you'll have to work through meal times.
16. Exercise the amount of calories eaten.
17. Keep a food journal.
18. Chew eat bite of food thoroughly and then take a sip of water between bites. You will feel full quicker and will not eat as much.
19. Say you are going to eat at a friend's house and instead go for a walk. You will be burning calories instead of taking them in.
20. Buy clothes that you can't fit into and hang them wear you can see them. This will motivate you to lose weight to fit into them.
21. Sleep at least six hours a day. If you get less than six this can lower your metabolism by 15%.
22. If you start to feel hungry do situps or punch yourself in the stomach. You will not feel hungry anymore.
23. Pamper yourself! TaKE a WarM Bath. Give yourself a facial, paint your nails, anything to make you feel pretty.
24. Make yourself a snack, but instead of eating it throw it away. Leave the dirty dishes where your parents can find them. They will think you ate.
25. Prepare a list of excuses as to why you can't eat - You're sick, you're a vegetarian, allergic, etc. You'd be amazed at how many good excuses there are.
26. Get out of your house! If you're not sitting around then people can't start shit with you about not eating.
27. Join a pro-ana group or start your own website. Anything that will keep you motivated.
28. Make an ANA scrapbook with pics of skinny models. Right down all the reasons you want to lose weight. Keep track of everything you eat. Look at it daily for thinsperation.
29. Keep good posture, burns 10% more calories when you sit up straight.
30. Instead of food, buy something else, a new shirt, flowers, jewelrey etc.
31. Make a list of all the "bad" foods that you crave and tend to binge on. Each day, pick one to take out of your diet that you absolutely, no matter what, cannot eat again. Take one off the list each day until there are no more bad foods you can have.
32. Avoid alcohol! A shot of liquor has 100-120 calories, a glass of wine has 80 calories, a lite beer has 110-120 calories, and a regular beer has 140-170 calories.
33. Never eat anything bigger than about a 2 cups, your stomach will expand and then you'll get hungry more.
34. Eat in front of a mirror naked. See how much you can eat then!
35. The smell of coffee is suppose to supress appetite.
36. Wear perfectly applied lip gloss. It makes you more aware of what's going in your mouth. Also, flavored ones help with cravings.
37. Have 6 small meals a day. Take 2 apples, and split them so you can make 6 meals out of them. That way your body will be tricked into thinking it's eating more.
38. Low calorie hot chocolate curbs chocolate cravings, and makes you feel full.
39. Think Happy thoughts and meditate
40. Take a picture of yourself wearing a bathing suit or something equally revealing, look at it when you want to eat.
41. It takes 20 minutes for the brain to realize the stomach is full.
42. When you get hunger pains curl into a ball, it makes them go away.
43. If you're a smoker and hungry, light up a cigarette. It curbs your appetite.
44. Eat lots of fiber. It makes you feel full and takes fat with it out of your body. The natural cleansing helps improve both your energy level and overall feeling of wellness.
45. Before you dig into that cake, bag of chips, candy, or whatever, take a deep breath and count to 100. Usually by the time you get to 100 you will have convinced yourself that you don't really want it.
46. When you're hungry chug 2 glasses (or how many you need) of straight water. It'll make you so full and nauseous you will have completely lost your appetite.
47. Celery actually burns calories. Every hour eat a stalk of it. Not only will it fill you up, but it will also get your metabolism kickin'.
48. Weigh yourself before and after every time you eat. Not only will it eliminate unnecessary eating, but it will make you want to eat less when you see the numbers creep up.
49. Read the nutritional information. Remember, fat-free does not mean calorie-free. Also keep an eye on fiber content. Get as much fiber into your diet as you can, while cutting fat and calories.
50. Don't eat a lot at once. Spread your food throughout the day. This will help to avoid binging and keep your metabolism going.
51. If you like to drink alcohol, you'll like this. Make a rule: You can only drink every time you lose 2lbs. So, if you lose 4lbs a week, you can drink Friday and Saturday night. However, if you only lose 2lbs a week, you only get to drink one night.
52. Do not eat in front of the computer or TV. This distracts you from recognizing you're full. 53. Save the money you would have spent on that meal in a jar. Save it in a bottle instead and watch it grow.
54. Stay away from Slim-fast and other so-called "healthy" candy bars and shakes... one look at the nutition facts will tell you why. With all the carbs and excess calories you may as well go eat a freakin pie or something. Not to mention the rediculous prices... save yourself the money, and the calories.
55. Instead of buying food, buy yourself flowers. Food is depressing, but flowers make you happy.
56. When having cravings drink a couple glasses of water with slices of lemons and count to 100 and it should go away.
57. Eating 100 cals 4 times a day is better than eating a 400 cal meal.
quotes.
- Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
- A moment on the lips, forever on the hips.
- Hunger hurts but starving works.
- You will be tempted quite frequently. You will have to choose whether to enjoy yourself wholly for those 20 minutes or so that you will be consuming excess calories, or whether you will despise yourself cordially for the next three days.
- Eat to live, but don’t live to eat..
- Every time you say no thank you to food, you say yes please to thin.
- You have a choice to make, do you want to be “Normal” and overweight like the rest of the world, Or do you want to be unique and be that girl every overweight person wants to be? It’s all up to you.
- I do eat normally: only what is needed for survival. I can’t help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
- Think higher of yourself, your too good to put that in your body.
- I’ve come too far to take orders from a cookie.
- The greasy fry, it cannot lie, its truth is written on your thigh.
- I have a rule when I weigh myself. If I’ve gained then I starve the rest of the day. But if I’ve lost, then I starve too.
- An imperfect body reflects an imperfect person.
- Don’t give up what you want most for what you want at the moment.
- Eat less, weigh less.
- I don’t care if it hurts, I want to have control, I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.
- Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
- What’s in your fingers today is on your hips tomorrow.
- You are what you eat.
- Good habits result from resisting temptation.
- Don’t eat anything today that you’ll regret tomorrow.
- Craving is only a feeling.
- A moment on the lips, forever on the hips.
- Hunger hurts but starving works.
- You will be tempted quite frequently. You will have to choose whether to enjoy yourself wholly for those 20 minutes or so that you will be consuming excess calories, or whether you will despise yourself cordially for the next three days.
- Eat to live, but don’t live to eat..
- Every time you say no thank you to food, you say yes please to thin.
- You have a choice to make, do you want to be “Normal” and overweight like the rest of the world, Or do you want to be unique and be that girl every overweight person wants to be? It’s all up to you.
- I do eat normally: only what is needed for survival. I can’t help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
- Think higher of yourself, your too good to put that in your body.
- I’ve come too far to take orders from a cookie.
- The greasy fry, it cannot lie, its truth is written on your thigh.
- I have a rule when I weigh myself. If I’ve gained then I starve the rest of the day. But if I’ve lost, then I starve too.
- An imperfect body reflects an imperfect person.
- Don’t give up what you want most for what you want at the moment.
- Eat less, weigh less.
- I don’t care if it hurts, I want to have control, I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.
- Giving in to food shows weakness, be strong and you will be better than everyone else.
- What’s in your fingers today is on your hips tomorrow.
- You are what you eat.
- Good habits result from resisting temptation.
- Don’t eat anything today that you’ll regret tomorrow.
- Craving is only a feeling.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
"Eat and Fat are related. If you Eat you'll be Fat. And if you are Fat it is because you Eat. Fat and Eat both have three letters. And think about it... if you put a little line on the bottom of Fat you get Eat. Take the little line of the bottom of Eat and you get Fat.
Being thin is in our grasps. Being fat is ugly. What is on the inside counts as much as what is on the outside. Guys and girls don't like fatass and if your fat you can fit nowhere.
Be thin. Don't eat. Being thin is happiness. Listen to Ana, not to food or all the other people that want to sabotage you. Remember a moment on the lips is life time on the hips."
Being thin is in our grasps. Being fat is ugly. What is on the inside counts as much as what is on the outside. Guys and girls don't like fatass and if your fat you can fit nowhere.
Be thin. Don't eat. Being thin is happiness. Listen to Ana, not to food or all the other people that want to sabotage you. Remember a moment on the lips is life time on the hips."
thinspo
i'm so picky about my thinspo pictures. i look through hundreds, finding the perfect ones that will keep me motivated.
thinspo words.
"when everything is going wrong, stop eating. its the only thing you can control in your life. if you can’t control what you put in your mouth, you don’t deserve to eat.
how skinny do you want to be? you want to be the thinnest in your whole group of friends. you want everyone to look at you and realise your strength and willpower. you want them to wish they could do it like you do it, don’t you?
flawless beauties don’t eat calories in secret.
thin is a skill. clothes look amazing on thin people, no matter what sort of clothes they are. you can’t look hot wearing peter alexander pyjamas when you’ve got a poochy tummy and muffin tops. get rid of those bingo wings too, nobody likes a fattie."
how skinny do you want to be? you want to be the thinnest in your whole group of friends. you want everyone to look at you and realise your strength and willpower. you want them to wish they could do it like you do it, don’t you?
flawless beauties don’t eat calories in secret.
thin is a skill. clothes look amazing on thin people, no matter what sort of clothes they are. you can’t look hot wearing peter alexander pyjamas when you’ve got a poochy tummy and muffin tops. get rid of those bingo wings too, nobody likes a fattie."
my "safe" foods
these are the foods i find myself reaching for while i'm dieting. i'm making this into a list in case i'm ever lost as to what to eat, i can come to this.
soup
rice cakes
oatmeal
apple
carrot
special k crackers
100 calorie packs (spread throughout the day)
special k bars
luna bars (split in pieces)
lettuce
boca burger
yogurt
orange
soup
rice cakes
oatmeal
apple
carrot
special k crackers
100 calorie packs (spread throughout the day)
special k bars
luna bars (split in pieces)
lettuce
boca burger
yogurt
orange
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
don't you dare binge.
"you are craving food right now, huh? What do you think you are doing? Don't you dare go anywhere near food! Don't touch it; don't even think about it. What do you want to do, become a fat cow? I am your best friend, and if you eat, you are failing me and letting me down. If you eat right it shows what little self-control you have. That pain in your stomach right now, that is me, and that is your fat melting away. When you feel empty, it means you are empty of your sins. Summer is coming up. You want to be able to walk around in booty shorts and a bikini top, don't you? You want to walk around in a bikini with your flat, firm little stomach and your toned little thighs. You to be able to run your hand over your stomach and feel your ribs. You want to go to the mall and see that skimpy outfit and know you would look damn good in it. You made a commitment to me. I am your life and obsession. Don't break what we have. I will give you everything you want, but you have to give me what I want. And I want you to stay away from food. Go have some water. Go drink some tea or coffee. Or better yet - go to the gym, fatty! Don't show me what little self-control you have. Don't defy me. You know that if you go eat right now, you will end up on your knees puking it all up until you see blood and water and your stomach is aching. You will regret eating as soon as those calories and that fat slip past your tonsils and down into your body to add to that extra roll on your stomach. You are going to get cellulite. You are going to look like the typical fat soccer mom. I can give you so much - I can give you a great body. Show me your control and I will show you a flat stomach. Show me you love me and can keep me a secret and stay away from food and I'll give you those shaped little thighs. Show me you can run until you drop and I will give you a cute ass. You love me. If you eat now and throw away what you are working for, I will hate you. And you will hate yourself. You have a meal plan; you have goals and dreams. Don't throw that all away now. Don't give up what you really want for something you want now. Don't eat. You are still no supermodel. Don't fail me. Don't eat! "
thin commandments.
1. If you aren't thin, you aren't attractive.
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.
3. You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, and do anything to make yourself look thinner.
4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwords.
6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7. What the scale says is the most important thing.
8. Losing weight is good/ gaining weight is bad.
9. You can never be too thin.
10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.
11. If you are thin, you will be loved and accepted
2. Being thin is more important than being healthy.
3. You must buy clothes, cut your hair, take laxatives, starve yourself, and do anything to make yourself look thinner.
4. Thou shall not eat without feeling guilty.
5. Thou shall not eat fattening food without punishing oneself afterwords.
6. Thou shall count calories and restrict intake accordingly.
7. What the scale says is the most important thing.
8. Losing weight is good/ gaining weight is bad.
9. You can never be too thin.
10. Being thin and not eating are signs of true will power and success.
11. If you are thin, you will be loved and accepted
reasons NOT to binge.
~ It's not healthy for ANYONE.
~ It'll block you from your potential
~ It'll hinder you from your progress
~ What about my goal weights? They come first.
~ Feeling full = disgust. Enough said.
~ Calories, calories, calories.
~ Say no and take a step forward.
~ We're better than this.
~ We're smarter than this.
~ Because we have willpower to walk away
~ Because those jeans wont stretch anymore
~ Because we'll be happy at the end of the day with our success
~ Because we deserve better.
~ Stomach bloating is not worth it.
~ Because you know you're going to hate it when your stuck feeling like shit for an entire day because of one slip up...so don't slip up.
~ All your hard work will have gone to waste.
~ A few minutes of binging doesn't make up for the hours of regret and disappointment.
~ Its going to take dayyyyyssss to work off those extra little pounds.
~ One binge will only lead to another. You don't want that cycle again.
~ A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips.
~ Saying no is taking another step forward.
~ You will be FAT if you eat today, just put it off one more day.
~ You don't NEED that much food.
~ Being able to starve is an example of excellent willpower.
~ You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
~ Food is mean and sneaky. It tricks you into eating it and it works on you from the inside out making you fat, bloated, ugly and unhappy.
~ It'll block you from your potential
~ It'll hinder you from your progress
~ What about my goal weights? They come first.
~ Feeling full = disgust. Enough said.
~ Calories, calories, calories.
~ Say no and take a step forward.
~ We're better than this.
~ We're smarter than this.
~ Because we have willpower to walk away
~ Because those jeans wont stretch anymore
~ Because we'll be happy at the end of the day with our success
~ Because we deserve better.
~ Stomach bloating is not worth it.
~ Because you know you're going to hate it when your stuck feeling like shit for an entire day because of one slip up...so don't slip up.
~ All your hard work will have gone to waste.
~ A few minutes of binging doesn't make up for the hours of regret and disappointment.
~ Its going to take dayyyyyssss to work off those extra little pounds.
~ One binge will only lead to another. You don't want that cycle again.
~ A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips.
~ Saying no is taking another step forward.
~ You will be FAT if you eat today, just put it off one more day.
~ You don't NEED that much food.
~ Being able to starve is an example of excellent willpower.
~ You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
~ Food is mean and sneaky. It tricks you into eating it and it works on you from the inside out making you fat, bloated, ugly and unhappy.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
abc.
i think it's time i call it quits with the abc diet. it makes me feel terrible, all the time. i think this diet may be part of the reason that i've been binging so much lately. it's like my body is rebelling against the rules of the diet. i think i am just going to start restricting as low as humanly possible, keeping it below 500 every day. that way, if i mess up it'll seem less harsh and less stressful than when i ruin it when on an official diet. then more stress leads to more binging. i'm sorry that this is such a stupid, rambling post, but its something i felt strongly about. maybe when my birthday gets sooner, if simply going less than 500 hasn't gotten me to 85, i'll get back on abc and pile on the stress. but for now i'm just going to keep it to restricting and be happy.
day two abc.
i was so close to binging just now. so close. but everything i started craving i couldn't find so i took as a sign that i'm on a diet and not supposed to be binging, so i settled for a 90 calorie bar. more than i would have liked, because i did go out of control, but it is better than a 500 calorie binge.
7:00 am - cup of black coffee
9:00 am - hash brown (150)
glass of orange juice (140)
1:30 pm- special k bar (90)
5:00 pm- sf strawberry jello (5)
total: 380
i know, i know. i broke my 10 am rule. this was the first official day of this rule, and i forgot as soon as there was food in my face. so i know the rule. no coffee tomorrow. it's gonna make the hunger pains in the morning even more intense.
i'll update this later with anything else i eat.
7:00 am - cup of black coffee
9:00 am - hash brown (150)
glass of orange juice (140)
1:30 pm- special k bar (90)
5:00 pm- sf strawberry jello (5)
total: 380
i know, i know. i broke my 10 am rule. this was the first official day of this rule, and i forgot as soon as there was food in my face. so i know the rule. no coffee tomorrow. it's gonna make the hunger pains in the morning even more intense.
i'll update this later with anything else i eat.
Monday, March 8, 2010
RULES.
- no eating before 10 am.
- no eating after 7 pm.
- take multivitamin every day.
- no soda, avoid junk food at all costs.
- drink one bottle of water before the school day ends.
- two more bottles of water at home.
- no binges. planned meals only.
- only eat when hungry.
- no more than 2 pieces of gum per day.
- never eat in private.
- if you don't know the nutrition, don't eat it.
- never eat more than 200 calories in one meal.
- don't snack or take bites of others foods.
- never eat out of the package.
i am still trying to think up punishments for when i break my rules. the only one i have so far is no coffee the next morning after i break a rule.
- no eating after 7 pm.
- take multivitamin every day.
- no soda, avoid junk food at all costs.
- drink one bottle of water before the school day ends.
- two more bottles of water at home.
- no binges. planned meals only.
- only eat when hungry.
- no more than 2 pieces of gum per day.
- never eat in private.
- if you don't know the nutrition, don't eat it.
- never eat more than 200 calories in one meal.
- don't snack or take bites of others foods.
- never eat out of the package.
i am still trying to think up punishments for when i break my rules. the only one i have so far is no coffee the next morning after i break a rule.
rules, goals, an introduction.
height: 5'3
current/start weight: 90.4
goal weight: 85
i want to reach my goal weight by my birthday (the end of april). i like setting very realistic goals, so that when i reach them, i'm extra happy. positive pessimism.
i've been having issues with binging lately, and i want to get my self control back. if i'm going to reach my goal, i am going to need determination. there is no room for slacking off. in a separate post, i am going to make a list of specific diet rules i must follow.
this is going to be my journey to a thinner, happier me. i always feel so great about myself when i reach goals, and so terrible when i fail. so why would i want to make myself feel terrible by eating junk, when i can eat healthy and low cal, and be happy?
current/start weight: 90.4
goal weight: 85
i want to reach my goal weight by my birthday (the end of april). i like setting very realistic goals, so that when i reach them, i'm extra happy. positive pessimism.
i've been having issues with binging lately, and i want to get my self control back. if i'm going to reach my goal, i am going to need determination. there is no room for slacking off. in a separate post, i am going to make a list of specific diet rules i must follow.
this is going to be my journey to a thinner, happier me. i always feel so great about myself when i reach goals, and so terrible when i fail. so why would i want to make myself feel terrible by eating junk, when i can eat healthy and low cal, and be happy?
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